urghhhhh

The bomb was dropped on me a few days ago....I am working everything out in my head (or at least trying too) and I keep ending up at square one. Stress level is maxed....cant sleep.....cant eat, confused, angry, hurt, pissed, frustrated, mad....I have that feeling that I was punched in the gut 20+ times.

I don't want to be in this place...I want to get away from it all but I know when I get back things here will be the same.

But, then again all I want to do is go back to bed and lay there until I can't lay there any longer.

I am so disgusted that someone could act like that and do those things right under my nose... as if they weren't happening.

I can't put in to words how I feel so this entry is done......